She enters the room, eyes glinting with anger and.. and something else - could you call it hatred?
Her friend asks her to "relax".
"How can I?", she yells back, even as she knew she soon would. She knew that the next day, not only would she relax, but she would even be comfortable with the thought; a thought which made her quiver with rage; a thought which made her want to choke him with her bare hands. She knew that within a mere 24 hours, she would've gotten used to it.. Grudgingly, she would've accepted it as a part of the unfairness of life.
"Which him?", her friend asks her.
Which him, indeed!
Suddenly she realises (strange, how the thought hadn't occurred to her before) that all her current trouble could be attributed to guys!
The one who denied her her constitutional right to freedom of speech; the one who rejected her proposal because he didn't want to lose power; the one who threatened to destroy her world because she reported the truth like it was; the one who reduced her friend to tears everyday - they were all men!
"Is this what they call sexual discrimination?", she wonders aloud.
Oh, there were guys being affected by it as well.. but somehow she couldn't help feeling that she felt the impact more! maybe because she couldn't help believing the best of everyone - she couldn't help trusting..
"Don't worry about it", her friend tells her, "another year or so, and you needn't have anything to do with them ever again!"
She nods her head, though deep down she doesn't agree. She doesn't like what happened to her. She doesn't like the idea of being suppressed by people just because they feel threatened. She doesn't like being told what to do, what to write, what to say.. She wants to fight it, but doesn't know how! She thinks it's unfair, but sees no solution. She feels helpless.
She knows, deep down, that these people need to be taught to be fair. Yet, she nods her head. She knows she won't do the "teaching".
"I don't have the time", she tells herself.
After all, there are assignments to be submitted, tests to be written, records to be drawn, projects to be done..
She sighs..
She knows by next week all this will be forgotten and they - the people who inflicted all this pain - will be forgiven. Forgiven without heir their knowledge for something they did not know they did! Free to continue doing what they've been doing all along - making people's lives miserable, if only for a day!
We don't talk anymore
3 weeks ago
2 comments:
I cannot for a moment believe this post is written by the same person who wrote the next one on shades of grey... I read that one first... from the sublime to the ridiculous...
I always wanted to see what your (and a certain other common friend's) opinion of this one will be. Now I know.. Thanks for commenting.:-)
Fyi, this was written in Jan 2007 for a newsletter the mcc women's forum was gonna publish.
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